I am so glad that it is not just me.
This feeling that my childhood was rather empty makes me a little sad and angry. I guess the weirdest part is only realising now what an effect growing up in the borg did to me!
i often think back to my childhood and discover that my memories are very patchy.
names, faces, school teachers, things related to being a brought up as a dub.
memories of some years are patchier than others - for example when i was about 10, we moved from the city that we had always lived to a small town, 2 hours drive away - we moved back to the city 3 years later - i remember very little of the first two years in that small town.. i seem to think that the years where the memories are patchy were times when i was quite unhappy.
I am so glad that it is not just me.
This feeling that my childhood was rather empty makes me a little sad and angry. I guess the weirdest part is only realising now what an effect growing up in the borg did to me!
i love peeling a fresh orange and eating it.
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i hate getting a phone call from someone i don't want to talk to, even if i don't answer, maybe especially if i don't answer.
Love that my croc's are so comfortable
I hate that they are so darn ugly
"life is too short", "carpe diem", "eat, drink, and be merry...", "never put off till tomorrow..." we have all heard these phrases, taken them to heart, and burned ourselves out on the stress from them.
i say...screw that shite!
the only thing keeping me from jumping out the window of my 6th story apt or driving my car into the back of one of the metro buses on the beltway is knowing that, if one of those actions do take place, i won't be able to nap that afternoon.
I wrote this a little while ago - just to illustrate how passionate I am about sleeping!!!
It is so hard to leave your comforting embrace… so very difficult to believe that I have to let you go. Such energy and willpower on my part to just get up and go but depart I must, for too much of you is a bad thing. Too much time with you and the world will come looking for me and they will force me to join them.
Your warmth is fading fast and yet your allure is still there. Even when you are cold and closed, I feel the need to return to you. The return is what keeps me going through the long hard day. The knowledge that when I am with you, nothing else matters, time becomes abstract and worries dissipate into the atmosphere. Even though you don’t really care who you entice into your clutches, I know that you will always be mine, and only mine – I chose you and I have looked after you and only when I say so, will you be released!
Soon, I will come back to you, I will dress up the occasion in satin and lace and you will receive me and encircle me in your cloudlike warmth,
Guess who didn’t feel like waking up this morning!
i often think back to my childhood and discover that my memories are very patchy.
names, faces, school teachers, things related to being a brought up as a dub.
memories of some years are patchier than others - for example when i was about 10, we moved from the city that we had always lived to a small town, 2 hours drive away - we moved back to the city 3 years later - i remember very little of the first two years in that small town.. i seem to think that the years where the memories are patchy were times when i was quite unhappy.
I often think back to my childhood and discover that my memories are very patchy. Names, faces, school teachers, things related to being a brought up as a dub.
Memories of some years are patchier than others - for example when I was about 10, we moved from the city that we had always lived to a small town, 2 hours drive away - we moved back to the city 3 years later - I remember very little of the first two years in that small town.
I seem to think that the years where the memories are patchy were times when I was quite unhappy. Even my highschool years are quite patchy.
Anyone else experience this?
i had to share this with all of you.
i hope it gives you encouragement to continue to try help your loved ones out.
i'll call her lisa.
Good for you Mrs Smith!!!
Love
Boo
friends,.
a co in the w...... congregation said that the reason so many of our brothers are dis-fellowshipped isn't because of wrong doing, it's because the new system isn't a reality.
read this all the way thru, it is truly a dose of what is yet to come.
And that is the end of the story... night night children... dont let the bed bugs bite!
friends,.
a co in the w...... congregation said that the reason so many of our brothers are dis-fellowshipped isn't because of wrong doing, it's because the new system isn't a reality.
read this all the way thru, it is truly a dose of what is yet to come.
I wonder why the fox doesn't eat the chickens, but the chickens are eating worms?
That is too funny!
"life is too short", "carpe diem", "eat, drink, and be merry...", "never put off till tomorrow..." we have all heard these phrases, taken them to heart, and burned ourselves out on the stress from them.
i say...screw that shite!
the only thing keeping me from jumping out the window of my 6th story apt or driving my car into the back of one of the metro buses on the beltway is knowing that, if one of those actions do take place, i won't be able to nap that afternoon.
You know it's bad when you wake up and as you crawl out of bed, you tell yourself that it is ok... you can go back to bed again tonight.
Where I live, we tend to have mild winters, and while the temperature is lowish, the skies are often still blue and the sun is bright. I get the afternoon sun in my bedroom. In summer it is unbearably hot, but.... one of my most fav. things is to have a nap on a winter afternoon - lie on the bed, with the winter sun streaming in the window to warm my soul!
so 8 years ago this time, i was running around in a mad rush - hairdressers and make up and flowers and so on.
the wedding was gorgeous.
somehow, by some miracle, we managed not to totally piss off either of our families (nic - of a catholic/anglican background and me of a jw background).
Thanks friends!!!
this facebook group is trying to get 10,000 exjw members.... join up!.
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=22272829408.
The only problem with this is that facebook is quite personalised - I have some active dubs as my FB friends and whilst I am getting braver, I dont want to out myself as an apostate completely just yet!!!